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Saturday, October 27th, 2001
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4:01 am
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It's a beautiful night tonight. As I sat and looked up at the sky, it seemed almost like a swatch of ebony velvet spangled with tiny diamond stars. Beautiful. It's finally getting cold again here. I abhor the heat and humidity of the good old deep South, so this is a nice change. Perhaps the only nice change in my life of late, but hey, nothing's ever easy, now is it?
I don't know. I just don't know anymore. Is it actually asking too much of the Fates to wish that just for a while, I could be happy? I suppose it is; I'm likely getting my just desserts. Karma's a bitch.
I just feel lately like I'm hanging on by a thread, and that single silken strand is getting rather frayed..
Yes, this is fragmentary, and likely doesn't make much sense. Blame it on the fact that I've had less than 12 hours sleep in the past week; blame it on the fact that my mind is a chaotic turmoil of conflicting thoughts and emotions; blame it on the fact that my world has moved on and left me stranded here alone and frightened of whatever dreams may come..Blame it on God, if such a personage exists. A cynic you ask? Moi?
Ah well. I think it's time to lie down for a while and pretend to sleep. Who knows, it might actually work this time.
current mood:  contemplative
current music: Third Eye Blind - Semi-Charmed Life
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| Tuesday, October 23rd, 2001
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2:46 am
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Mmkay, so I have this brand-new journal, and wouldn't you know it, I'm too tired to write anything amusing. I suppose the whole lack of sleep thing will do that to a person sooner or later. I guess this will just be one of those 'I was here but now I'm gone' notes for this evening; tomorrow I'll try to get something accomplished. There's a thought. :P
current mood:  sleepy
current music: Cyndi Lauper: Time After Time
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